Musings

MUSINGS

We just don’t care.

Fuck.  We’re here again.  We really don’t learn anything from history, do we?  I’m referencing Anita Hill’s accusation of sexual harassment by Clarence Thomas in 1991, of course. I’ve been relatively quiet about this issue, only discussing it amongst a couple friends....

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Remembering you always

Four years ago I put down my best friend, Logan.  He was the first dog I ever owned.  Sure, it’s been four years, but I think the first puppy love one never forgets. I adopted him when he was approximately two-three years old from a local animal shelter in upstate New...

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Let’s Talk Business

I swear I will compose more positive posts following my team coming in first, in our first CrossFit competition, but I’m tallying my expenses from my Chicago tour/Exxxotica trip this morning and I can’t help but be disappointed. The only reason why I decided to go to...

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Sylvia Plath Excerpt from letter November 22, 1955

“Words revolve in flame and keep the coliseum heart afire, reflecting orange sunken suns in the secret petals of ruined arches.  yes, the glowing asbestos thorns and whistling flame flowers reflect the cells of the scarlet heart and the coliseum burns on, without a...

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Stupidity always wins, well, at least in my industry.

This was too much to type in Twitter, but I thought this was an amusing exchange and again, proves my point, as always, that stupidity always wins. A performer I had not seen in a while asked me what I’ve been up to. I replied, “Well, I’m trying to take Organic...

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Drunken Meet & Greet and Bill Maher

When I saw on the TER board that the NYC Meet & Greet would be November 9th, I decided I would definitely plan to tour the city after the expo.  I had never been to on and figured it might be worthwhile to network. A previous client and I decided to see each other...

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Exxxotica and back in NYC

The only reason I decided to go to Exxxotica in the first place was because I was supposed to shoot with an independent producer, whom I’ve worked with before in DC.  He booked my flight out and was going to book my flight back from New York, and he was possibly going...

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Tuesday happenings

I picked up my vehicle from the auto body shop today. I needed my driver side back door buffed out because I scraped it on one of the columns in the parking garage of the Cosmopolitan. I was in a hurry to get to call and I didn’t want my booker to be irritated that I...

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Mirror by Sylvia Plath

“I am silver and exact. I have no preconceptions. Whatever I see I swallow immediately. Just as it is, unmisted by love or dislike. I am not cruel, only truthful–” Mirror by Sylvia Plath  

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My envy will be your destruction

I am envious of the women who do not have to work out, those who are naturally lean and eat pizza and French fries without hesitation. When I still worked with an agency, we had to meet once a week to do our drop, and one of the ladies, showed up with McDonald’s...

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Sunday thoughts

I dreamt last night that I had several tanks of various species of fish and even a couple turtles, but then a crack appeared in one tank and I was asking my father to help me fix it before my mom found out so she wouldn’t scream at me. Probably has something to do...

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Shit happens. Preparation for an Appointment

I notify clients that I need at least three hours to get ready for an appointment, if they are booking the same day. Hence, why I and many providers prefer that you pre-book. And many do not even take same day appointments and request 24-hours notice. You may wonder...

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Nirvana

I was listening to NPR on my way to LA and a man was talking about how he discovered Nirvana during the LA riots and how that changed his life.  NPR was playing some of their songs in the background, so I decided to listen to “Nevermind” after I finished NPR’s ‘All...

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Climax

One word you cannot use in an Eros ad:  Climax. This sentence was not allowed:  “The experience should be sensual, effortless and grow to a magnificent climax in such a way that everything else is forgotten and you melt within the experience.”

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